In this novel, Ernest, unable to speak of desire without falling into guilt and self-justification, entrusts his story to a bold, perceptive narrator who takes us from his childhood through his sexual awakening, early obsessions, and complex relationships--with women like Aurora and Gisela--set against a backdrop of social change, from Messenger to Tinder. Spanning nearly two decades, the novel traces his attempt to build a personal code amid shifting norms and expectations. With honesty and insight, Arià Paco offers a fresh take on male heterosexual desire, crafting a narrative that rejects outdated tropes and opens a path toward unexplored emotional and political landscapes.