“[Hiding Out] brims with drunkenness, sexuality and urgency...a “can’t-put-down” read.”  — Washington Post

Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen’s audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father—a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of thirteen children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed high school basketball prodigy, she harbored a painful secret: she liked girls. When Tina was eighteen her father discovered the truth about her sexuality. Instead of dragging her to the family priest and lecturing her with tearful sermons about sin and damnation, her father shocked her with his honest response. He, too, was gay.

The secret they shared about their sexuality brought father and daughter closer, and the two became trusted confidants and partners in a relationship that eventually spiraled out of control. Tina and Sir John spent nights dancing in gay clubs together, experimenting with drugs, and casual sex—all while keeping the rest of their family in the dark.

Outside of their wild clandestine escapades, Sir John made Tina his heir apparent at the travel agency. Drawn deeper into the business, Tina soon became suspicious of her father’s frequent business trips, his multiple passports and cache of documents, and the briefcases full of cash that mysteriously appeared and quickly vanished. Digging deeper, she uncovered a disturbing facet beyond the stunning double-life of the father she thought she knew.

A riveting and cinematic true tale stranger and twistier than fiction, Hiding Out is an astonishing story of self-discovery, family, secrets, and the power of the truth to set us free.

How does a daughter survive a bond with her father built on secrets?

• A Complicated Father Daughter Relationship: She’s the youngest of thirteen; he’s Sir John, a Knight of the Pope. When he discovers she’s gay, he confesses he is too, pulling her into a dangerous partnership she may not survive.
• A Shocking Double Life: Together, Tina and Sir John spend nights dancing in gay clubs, experimenting with drugs and casual sex—all while keeping the rest of their devoutly Catholic family in the dark.
• Uncovering Vatican Secrets: Drawn into her father’s travel agency, Tina uncovers multiple passports, briefcases full of cash, and a clandestine life that suggests Sir John is more than just a tour guide for the pious.
• A Raw Coming of Age Memoir: A powerful story of self-discovery, rebellion, and survival that navigates the complexities of sexuality, faith, and the kind of secrets that can either bind a family together or tear it apart.

“Perhaps it’s Allen’s background as an actress and playwright that gives Hiding Out, at turns jaw-dropping and spellbinding, its dramatic tension and spot-on dialogue. Her memoir is as compulsive to read as it is heartbreaking. And that’s the truth.”